When Logan was born and as time escaped me, I felt for the longest time that those first 6 weeks were our hardest. I had a tough time healing and adjusting to the lack of sleep. But it got better and easier and now that he's two, those first 6 weeks were precious. So many changes occur, for both of us, and really are not all that bad.
There are certain things I do without a second thought. Changing a diaper, finding a paci under his bed, fixing him milk, making him laugh...all of which make both of our hearts grow just a little bigger, no matter how mundane it might seem, poopy diaper and all. The worst part about being a mother is that your heart is outside of your body. I can no longer think about life without thinking about Logan being in it. For someone with terrible anxiety, this can become bad at times as the worry I foster is not healthy, but I cannot help it. My heart is running around the room, chasing the dogs, pulling on the lamp cord, putting too much food in his mouth, taking a face plant in the snow, giving hugs, loving Elmo and trains, pronouncing "airplane" in such a way that only B and I know exactly what he's saying...
My Logan, my little wolverine, is the most exciting, precious, important, loving thing in my life (right there next to B of course!). I never knew I could love someone, this tiny piece of me and my soul mate, so much. I never knew I could become the mother I am today. It's thrilling and a little scary, but mostly amazing. I thank God 1000 times a day for blessing me with Logan and his daddy. Without them, I'd be lost.
Some fun facts:
- On February 2, Logan weighed exactly 26 pounds and is 35" tall.
- He wears 2T clothing (24 months is too short) and size 4 diapers
- He has nearly 80 words in his vocabulary, but only uses about half of those regularly
- He's still obsessed with lights.
- His first two-word sentence was "light on"
- He knows almost all his body parts (elbows and knees throw him off!)
- He can count to 3 with help.
- He can tell you how old he is.
- He started saying "yeah" instead of "uh-huh" when asked a question
- He sleeps in a toddler bed for about 10 hours at night and takes one 3 hour nap in the afternoon
- He hates not getting his way
- He loves everything else. Seriously. ;)