>i cried last night.
it was the first time in i don't know how many years that it was out of pure exhaustion. i have been working so much and hours that don't give me more than 6-7 hours of sleep at night that i just cracked all over brendan. i tried holding it back and thinking, nah...i don't need to cry. but at the same time, i almost wanted to cry. and then i did. brendan was just explaining something that was supposed to be funny and i fell apart.
it was one of the best cries i have had in a long time. i was sad because i missed brendan. i was sad because i don't get enough sleep. i was sad because i didn't want to watch dr. horrible. i was sad because i missed my mom. i was sad because i didn't know why i got another babysitting job. i collapsed.
and it felt great.