Currently...I have no idea what day it is!

Logan is...

Building...up his tantrum stamina. I really don't like highlighting negative things, but this kid is impressive. He is hella strong and his 30 pounds of rock solid toddler body is almost too much to handle when he's fighting something. He absolutely loves Evelyn and is super sweet with her, but he is 3 and going through a major transition so we are doing our best to be extra loving and patient with him.

Sharing...hugs and kisses for Evie! He is pretty hands-off with her, but he will love on her some and it is so precious!

Dreading...washing his hair. This is a never-ending battle and is to the point now where he pretty much refuses to even take a bath for fear of us washing his hair. So I have the dirty kid in class. He gets a bath maybe once a week. Ewww, I know.

Singing...all kinds of nursery songs! He loves to sing and loves ABCs the most. He can sing it really fast and it just cracks us up.

I am...

Building...a milk supply. I started yesterday after the direction of my lactation consultant. I really don't want to go back to work; I need to and most of not wanting to has to do with not wanting to leave our little Evie behind.

Newborn photos!

We are so lucky in that we were able to get professional photos of Evelyn done when she was 9 days old. One of Bs friends came up from Denver and she spent 5 hours with us getting the most perfect shots of our little girl and family. Here are some faves!!

Newborn photos!

We are so lucky in that we were able to get professional photos of Evelyn done when she was 9 days old. One of Bs friends came up from Denver and she spent 5 hours with us getting the most perfect shots of our little girl and family. Here are some faves!!

Body After Baby and Breastfeeding

So, here I am 3 weeks out from Evelyn's birth and I feel really good. I gained 50 pounds with both pregnancies, but loosing the weight this time and the way I feel in general has been 10 times better than the first time. Since my recovery has been better, I have been up and around walking and doing almost everything at a normal level which I'm certain has helped me lose weight faster. AND I really don't care how quickly I lose the weight. That is the best part. It's summer time and I knew there was no way I was going to have a summer body, plus I live in a land locked state so it's not like I have a beach out there waiting for me to slim down. AND I think I look pretty good with some more meat on my bones. You long time readers will remember that it was only a year and a half ago that I was terribly underweight. My clothes were hanging on me, I felt terrible and I wanted nothing more than to gain some healthy weight. I got back up to my normal weight just before I became pregnant and during pregnancy, I ate well and walked around a hospital everyday for exercise. A 50 pound weight gain for my height and stature is normal.

Someone asked me today how I'm losing the weight and I honestly think it just has to do with breastfeeding, eating fairly well, and walking around the house more. With my first birth, I hated to even move from the couch to the bed and the thought of going up and down 3 flights of stairs was out of the question. I nursed Logan for 10 weeks but did not feel like I lost weight from doing so. We store extra fat in our rumps for breastfeeding and so naturally, it hangs around for the duration.

Speaking of breastfeeding, it's been a trip. It's hard, painful and different almost every time. I just weaned Evie from the nip shield and that is going well, however I have an over supply and that makes things even more complicated. Every week I have been going to our breastfeeding support group which is free through the hospital. I'm able to weigh Evie before her feeds and see how much milk she is transferring. Last Monday she weighted 7.8# and today she is 7.15# so we are doing great! As a mom there are a million things to worry about and healthy weight gain is just one thing I can cross off the list.

So things are okay. Not great, not terrible. Still adjusting.

3 weeks old, time is flying!!

This always happens with life events. Leading up to the impending birth of our baby, time stood still. I watched the clock and timed contractions and woke up another day pregnant praying for labor to kick in and here we are, three weeks later and Evelyn is here! Three of the craziest weeks of our lives and Evie is growing and changing so much already.

B just went back to work. Yesterday was my first day home alone with both kids and today it's just me and Evie watching Bridezillas, doing laundry and organizing cloth diapers. Having B home was such a great, priceless blessing. He and I are both super bummed he is back to work.

Yesterday was rough. Logan had a hard time with the lack of attention I could give him. We are all still adjusting to this new way of life and I hate that my attention is now clearly divided. It will get better only because I know it cannot get worse! ;)

I am pretty anti-schedule and routine with a newborn. I feed her when she's hungry, she sleeps when she's tired, and we play when she's awake. Nailing down something solid is too stressful for me and baby girl so we are just going with the flow.

On Waiting

As most of you know, we chose not to find out the sex of our baby before she was born. We found out at the 20 week scan with Logan that he was going to be a boy and honestly, I knew he was a boy and finding out was so anti-climatic for me that there was no way I was finding out the second go around. I actually would have been fine not knowing then, either, but B really wanted to know so we made a compromise that this time we would wait.

Once we got past the 20 week ultrasound without finding out, it became much easier to wait, even though we had a few more ultrasounds after that one. When we told others we were waiting, almost everyone thought that was so awesome while also commenting that there was "no way!" they could do the same. Being that I work in a hospital, people asked me all the time if we knew the sex of our baby. Every time I said no I felt a little more excited and proud that we were holding out. It's 9 months...how hard can that be? There were times when it would have been nice to know but there was never a moment where I felt like I needed to know.

In my family we talk every now and then about our top 5 life moments. You know the ones that just move you and make you feel every single emotion you felt at that time all over again. The moment that Evelyn was placed on my belly and B and took that long anticipated peek between her legs and saw that she was a girl? Yeah, that is one of my top 5 life moments. The exhilaration I felt and seeing everyone's eyes well with tears upon our announcement will never be forgotten.

So to all you soon to be mamas, whether for the first or fourth time, I urge you to wait. It is one of the greatest, most exciting surprises in life, as I'm sure you've heard others describe, and it could not be more true. And if you think you really can't wait, trust me, you can...it is so worth it!!

Evie-grams

Not much time to write out a post right now so here is some serious eye candy for ya. Happy Wednesday!