Crazy Talk

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Ohmystars, as Miss Pettijohn says. Today has been horrible. The stress from the test has been so intense that I am hardly sleeping. I just lay in bed wide awake thinking and rethinking formulas and vocabulary words. Then, once I am finally ready to drift off, Logan awakes in pain. Those poor gums are just tortured and not just one, but two at the same time. Ouchies. THEN I have to go to work. I wake up at 5am, take B to work, get myself ready, get Logan ready, drop him off and go to work. Answer phones, help residents and staff and TRY to smile. Ha. My eyes are burning and I can hardly keep my head off the table. It was a terrible day and I am going to rest for awhile tonight before cracking open my GRE book. I have determined something about this whole thing: It is not teaching me the math, or the vocab, or whatever. It is teaching me how to answer the question a backasswards way so I don't have to actually do the math itself. Whelp, now if I was just a wee bit smarter in that department (trust me, a wee bit is a HUGE understatement) then I might, just maybe, get a few answers right. B helped me answer 4 practice questions. We got one right. So there's my fate people. I am just praying that the GRE is merely a stupid grad school requirement and that they really don't care about your score. I DO have some rockin references.

30 Day Challenge: A Buncha Days...

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I give in. I CANNOT not blog. And if I read one more quantitative problem tonight my eyes are going to bleed and my brain will explode. Seriously. This is my most recent FB status:

"I give in. This GRE crap is so hard! Seriously, I'd rather give birth again--without an epidural!"

I mean it. I would gladly take on gut-wrenching, crotch-burning labor for 12 hours than deal with the unexpected nature of this test meant only for geniuses. So, as a distraction, I am going to catch up on the Challenge and TRY to relax.

Wanna play?

Day 15: Bible Verse

John 11:35

Jesus wept.

This verse has been the most real, validated verse in all of the Bible for me. It realizes Jesus, makes him more of a man than any other. I believe some of the trusts emotions anyone can show is with tears. When I cry, it's for real. And I know when B cries, it is real. If you happen to see me pulled over on the side of the road balling, it's because I a) peed my pants because my bladder will NEVER be the same or b) am so anxious and scared of the outcome there is nothing else I can do. Fortunately for you, I have only been pulled over once and I never even cried.

In all seriousness, this verse is just beautiful. It's easy to remember, it's real. Jesus wept. When I think of what the word means, I see Jesus sitting with his head in his hands crying, hard. His heart is aching. I feel tightness in my chest just thinking about it.

Day 16: Dream House

Two stories

Vaulted Ceilings

Large fireplace in living room and master bed

Jacuzzi tub in master bath

Heated tilling in master bath

Double shower heads in master bath

Master plus 3 beds for our beautiful children

Large kitchen with stainless steal appliances

Cherry wood floors throughout main floor

Large front and back yard, fenced in the back for the dogs an safety

A MAID TO CLEAN IT ALL ONCE A WEEK. :)

No, pray for me.

Gearing Up/Buckling Down

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Oh my. I am fa-reeeeeeking out right now! (so is Logan, as you can see...) I am schedule to take the GRE exam a WEEK from Monday on November 1st. I am confirming this date with my advisor because I would really rather wait until the first week of December, but the results need to be in by Dec 1st to my school. SOooooo here I sit blogging. Well, it's been fun! I have to bust my heiny to do WELL on this test so this is my farewell for the week. I will not be posting ANYTHING and it will just about kill me not to, but I HAVE to. I know you all understand. Feel free to shoot up some prayers and leave some encouraging messages. Specifically, if you have a special Bible verse that really encourages and motivates you, please share. I will read those during the 10 min break time I will be allotting myself but I won't be writing. So I hope everyone has a great week! Wish me luck!!