Not Just a Twinkle...

>May 30, 2010

Not just a twinkle….

One year ago YESTERDAY, I sat anxiously at work, browsing websites trying to figure out if I was pregnant or not. I had peed on a stick four days prior and it was negative. I’d been 5 days late a few months back, got very excited, had a big fat negative and on the 6th day Dotty arrived.

I was 6 days past and had been texting my most special cousin Heidi, a momma to 3 now, and she was BEGGING me to pick up a test that night. We live a good 1000 miles away from each other and I am pretty sure she was on her knees. At the time, she was 10 weeks pregnant with River and I wanted more than anything to experience pregnancy with her, even if miles separated us. Well, now we are in the mommy club together and it is amazing!

I wrote this post back in the day when I first announced I was expecting. I got off work at 10pm and drove straight to Walgreens, picked up a test and some ice cream because you can’t take a pregnancy test without ice cream on hand, just in case it was bad news. So I drove home and ran down the stairs of our basement apartment. B was sitting on the couch playing a game, the dogs were next to him. I waved the test at him and told him I was peeing on it again. He was not excited, just *whatever-okay*. He did not want to set himself up for disappointment and neither did I, but I had to know.

So I peed and waited. While I waited, I left the tests in the bathroom and paced outside the door and after 5 minutes, checked it. I was half convincing myself that there was no way I could be pregnant. That it would be negative again and we’d wait a little longer to try again.

Boy was I wrong! Two pink lines, my breath taken away, and a smile that could stretch across the universe, I stepped out into the living room and waved the test at B. I was nodding my head and told him I was pregnant! It is one of my top 5 best moments of my life! B and I hugged and kissed. I was so happy I could not even cry!

And now, now we have our little Logan. We have the most precious blessing and gift we have ever been privy to and we could not be happier. Logan is always growing and changing. I love seeing how far he has come from a little newborn. It is the BEST job I could have ever been offered.